alana and extra were here, so i decided it was time to come out of the closet to them. i started talking about katie's wedding (she's engaged now), because i wanted to talk about my lack of boyfriend, hoping that would lead into something. they couldn't get over the fact that katie was getting married, so that went nowhere. after a long time of conversing about things i wasn't trying to talk about, i came up with a new plan, and started talking about marie and how she wants to live with us next year and how she 'likes people.' i eventually got them to understand that 'likes people' = 'is bisexual'. that's when molly came home, and it's impossible to have a conversation with all 3 of them at once, and i didn't want to come out to them in one room while molly was in the next, because if i'm going to come out to molly, i want to do it directly. well, not directly. i am not direct. but i want to do it to her face, anyway.
i have issues... i can't say gay. or lesbian. or homosexual. or queer. i can say bad though, so i did, over and over... and naturally, they didn't get it. they're not rashid, malik, or marie, so how could they have any idea? i need a new plan of attack. i have trouble with those words, so i have to find a new way to get at it...
- how do you say 'i'm gay' without saying 'i'm gay'?
"Hey guys, *shows up paper*"
Just a thought. I was thinking about this issue actually cause I too find it a bit hard to say it out. Not that I'm coming out any sooner.
Good luck with that.
Cheers,
Ollz San
-Holly
I think that's what you meant...
~Jay~