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i'm officially done with my internship. the funny thing is that i'm not as happy as i thought i would be. all day, i was happy. i couldn't wait to get out of there. anna asked me 'what are you going to do monday, when you don't hear "hi loser!"?' i laughed and said with a grin 'i'm going to sleep in!' and i wasn't sad at all. i cleaned up all my stuff, packed everything up, and said bye to everyone. they all said things like 'write us and let us know how you're doing,' and 'we'll miss you,' and 'you're welcome to come back next summer!' i said bye and tried to act sad, but i wasn't. i was just ready to leave. i turned in my badge on the way out, and burst out the doors, into the parking lot, completely free. and all of a sudden i was sad. i hated this place, and the desk, and the work i did. i hated the computer and the chair and the programming languages and i wouldn't miss any of that. but i would miss these guys. i would miss anna. anna and i came in an hour before the rest of the crew, and i didn't really talk to her much during that hour, but every morning, without fail, the first thing she would say to me would be 'hi loser!' and i would answer 'good morning.' for 57 days, that's what happened, and now it's not going to happen any more. i'll miss that. i'll miss listening to brian and anna joke around. i'll miss the crew i ate lunch with. i'll miss my daily updates on the world news from the guy in the next cubicle over. i'll miss the 10:00 coffee break with the whole crew. i'll miss jim's quiet way of making sure that everyone is doing their job. i hated the job, but i guess i grew kind of attatched to these guys. it's a little bittersweet, and what's bothering me the most is that i have to act happy. any time any of my friends asked about my internship, i told them that i hated it and i couldn't wait to get out. they wouldn't understand if i told them that now i have mixed emotions about leaving. so i tell them all how happy i am, and wonder if there's something wrong with me, for being so happy and sad at once.